Long Time No Talk

In case anyone has noticed, I haven't blogged since May. Partly because I have been trying not to bake and to instead focus on eating and acting healthy. Plus, anything with 2 kids is twice as crazy as it was with 1, especially when number 2 starts to climb the furniture. To blame it all on life, sounds like a cop out, but I am. Life got in the way of my blog, good for me.

I am really only blogging now in order to keep up my motivation for this whole healthy lifestyle crap. It has been about 4 months since I really started eating right and exercising regularly for the first time in my life. This is longer than I thought I would make it and I am not even asking myself when can I stop. I know they answer, never. This is a lifestyle change, not a diet or a program. My questions are: When does it get easier? When will I stop craving all the bad stuff to eat? When will I start enjoying working out?

I have heard it take 21 days to make or break a habit. Well, in 4 months I do believe I have broken a few bad habits, not all of them, not even most of them, but some. More importantly, I have made a good habit, exercising and have even started running. (Who knew it wouldn't actually kill me?) But just because it is a habit now to tie on my tennis shoes and head out the door after kissing Claire good night three times a week, doesn't mean I like it.

I don't like skipping the chips and bread at restaurants. I don't like eating a FiberOne granola bar after fixing cinnamon rolls for the kids. I don't like skim milk or water. I don't like sugar free low fat anything. I don't like to sweat. I don't like walking out the door for the gym and missing time to hang out with Brent. I don't feel a "high" when I am finished sweating like a pig. On top of all that, the almost the whole time I am jogging, on the bike or the elliptical, I am thinking, "How much longer?"

What I do like: loosing weight (19 lbs so far), going down 2 pant sizes, compliments from friends and family.

I guess those three little "likes" outweigh the long list of "don't likes" because here I am, looking to stay motivated and to continue to work on those bad habits I can't seem to shake. (most importantly cutting out soda). And lastly, to realize that I am half way to my goal of loosing 40 pounds and the first half is always easier and goes faster than the second half. I just have to keep going because there isn't a finish line.